Filled and Satisfied

Filled and Satisfied

     The other day I picked up my Bible and happened to open to Psalm 90. I read the whole psalm in the New Revised Standard Version but these are the verses that I kept coming back to:

 

12So teach us to count our days,
    that we may gain a wise heart.

13 Turn, O Lord! How long?
    Have compassion on your servants.
14 Satisfy us in the morning with your steadfast love,
    that we may rejoice and be glad all our days.

 

     Scholars reflect upon the whole psalm as one of contrasting God's eternity with our human frailty.  And, as the Israelites were in the wilderness and relied on God for His provisions of quail and manna, we too rely on God in the midst of our current times...for some this may be their wilderness - uncharted territory, wondering how long it will continue.  I struggle to remember what day of the week it is, let alone the date of the month.  To me, it already seems that we have faced a wilderness for what seems to be an eternity in our eyes.  But God's eternity and timing and our perspective of them are different.

     So we count our days, we look for guidance, we listen to our leaders, the experts, and the specialists...we want to know what lies ahead and in these uncertain times we may not find anything to satisfy us...

     Satisfy - to be filled, at peace, content; to feel complete, assured, whole; to have purpose.  We were living a life of busy-ness, many activities, appointments, events filling our days, often wishing for a break from it all to give us a little time for ourselves, time to renew and rejuvenate.  And now, with more time on my hands to rest and catch up on some things that went by the wayside...I find I am still not satisfied.  I feel wrapped in boredom, lost in direction, isolated from many, and wanting to return to life as it was.  Being removed from what I deemed "normal" in life, it's made me pause to think about that and what really has purpose.

     Yet, I read these verses and I see that satisfaction does not come in the things I want nor in the experts and leaders in the world, but in God's "steadfast love."  Oh, to remember this each morning, for it is His love that gives us fulfillment, peace, and contentment regardless of all other things that surround us.  It reminds us of our purpose - spending time with Him.  May this be our prayer not just in these times of wilderness, but for every day, that we may rejoice and be glad all our days.  In Jesus' name.  Amen.